1/13/03

Hey, it's been awhile since I wrote. I've been busy with homework, then coming back to school and doing RA training. I've finally got a little time. I'm actually sitting in the office on duty as I type. Today was the first day of classes. I think I'm gonna haveta do some review for Proofs 2, but hopefully it won't be that bad since my professor teaches like my number theory professor did last semester. I hope I can see my online friends more now. Specially one in particular (you know who you are kitten). It's been a fairly quiet evening, which is a good thing because I need to go to sleep as soon as I set my downloads when I get back to my room. I have an 8 AM Geometry class. Tuesdays are gonna be my busiest days. I've been feeling kinda down lately, but I think I'll be better if I talk to this one friend. Ah well, I'm starting to not be able to think straight. 20 more minutes till final rounds and I can go to bed. Night all.

1/2/03

Well, Happy New Year to anyone that actually reads this. It's not really for me. I tend to sit and think about how badly my love life stinks. *sigh* Sometimes I just wanna lay down and cry. Why am I always falling for girls out of my reach? I dunno. How do you get a girl to trust you more when you can only talk to her online? I'm trying, but I'm running out of thoughts. I guess it comes down to the fact that waiting can be wearisome. But no matter how much I complain or cry, I will still wait and hope that she'll eventually trust me enough to let me move there when I graduate and go out with her. Maybe I'm just an idiot. Maybe it's jsut too early in the morning -_- I haveta go do some observations at a high school and it's the first day after winter break. Technically I'm still on break, but gotta go do these observations, which means getting up earlier than what I'd like. And I got way too used to sleeping in over the break part of my break. Going from getting up at 10 AM to getting up at 5:30 AM. Bleh. Whoops, time to go. I'll be back later.
Well, I'm back. I'm a little less emotional now. phew. I can wait as long as I need to, no matter what. I just wish I could do more for her and was a better conversationalist. I had a long day of observations and I get to go do more tomorrow. Matter of fact, except for this weekend, that's how I'll spend the rest of my break. LOL, even on winter break I'm looking forward to friday. Well, my sister is on the PS2 right now and I wanna play FFX. So I guess I'll try to work on some stuff for this site right now. Later. Love you kitten.

12/25/02

Christmas Day. What can I say? It wasn't the greatest, but it wasn't as bad as I thought it'd be. From what went on last night I thought I'd haveta listen to mom yell at dad for buying my one sister too many presents and the other not enough. Fortunately he had the brains to even them out before this morning. On a bad note, I asked for a PS2 for christmas so I could play games and watch DVDs at school. However, mom didn't go for that idea and bought a PS2 and made it a family system. So it's going to be staying at home while I'm at school. Our old PS1 I MIGHT get to take with me IF both of my sisters and my mother say it's ok (because it's also a "family system". And I still have nothing to play DVDs on. My big expensive gifts this year was a carpet for my room at school and a set of dishes for when I move to my own place after I graduate in a year and a half. I got a few clothes and a bunch of cooking stuff. Dad went hogwild buying a portable cd player and 4 different headphones. I also got a box of 10 puzzles with varying amounts of pieces. They'll be too easy for me so I think I'll mix all of the pieces together. I got like 5 books by authors I've been wanting to try, but I got to pick those out myself so I knew what I was getting. Dad bought me a couple stupid dolls. And a couple stupid lights and lamps that I'll never use. Hmmmmm, I think that's about it, mighta forgot one or two things, but oh well. Dinner was good, mom always cooks a fantastic dinner. We took our gradnparents their presents before the weather turned bad. Bleh, no work done on my website really. Oh well, I'll get around to it. Ja ne.

12/24/02

Well, today was good and bad. Mom got mad about a bunch of stupid stuff and us kids had to listen to it. Then we went and saw Star Trek: Nemesis. It was ok, not the greatest. I don't recommend seeing it in the theater, maybe rent it. We got back and she threw dinner together, and got talking with her bf. She utterly ignored the fact that our grandparents were knocking on the door while she was talking to him. She apparently wanted us to open the door, but we didn't know, we thought she might be mad and not talking to them since she walked away from the door while they were knocking. She never said a word to us. So we got chewed out for waiting to ask her if we should open the door. Then we had this nice excuse set up as to why no one answered the door right away and what does she do? She calls them up and tells them that the kids didn't answer the door. So we look bad. Then she yells cause we didn't make dinner ourselves. As we speak mom is sorting and arranging christmas gifts under the tree. It's making her mad too. She always gets mad on the holidays, there's absolutely nothing anyone can possibly do to make her happy. The weather turned bad and we didn't go to church tonight either. That's dissappointing for me, I really like to go and sing christmas songs. *sigh* Well, I'm gonna go deal with another holiday where mom is mad. Later.

12/23/02

Well, I got to relax some today. The most I had to do was a good hour and a half of wrapping presents in the evening. Most of my time I spent reading a book. It was Dragons of Summer Flame from the Dragonlance novels. Good book. I love when I finish a book. The feeling is second only to being near the one you love :) At least in my opinion. So now I sit and work on this site. I may go play some computer games after I go sit online for awhile. I dunno. Anyway, later.

12/21/02

oooooo, first diary entry, fun fun. I'm really bored right now, but anyway, here's my day. I actually got to sleep in, which is a rarity, unfortunately I woke up hungry and with nothing to eat around the house, so I had to put on my clothes and drive to Sheetz for a couple Schmuffins -_- pain in the butt. Got back and enjoyed a nice, quiet breakfast, which of course ended with my mother and sister getting back from the hair salon. They ate lunch and yay, it's time to go christmas shopping *sarcasm intended*. So we drive 25 minutes to the mall, go in, walk around a junky store for awhile and mom buys a bunch of stuff for people other than who we came to buy for. Then she gets the bright idea to buy a stereo system for my grandparents. She has me take all the current bags out to the car, but not before reaming me out for not having brought my set of keys to the car, which is a car I don't even drive anymore. I started getting mad at this point (already annoyed by all the crowds and rude people walking right in front of me the whole time). When I came back in, she had purchased the stereo system and told me to go get the car and bring it to the sidewalk. She had forgotten to mention that the key to start the car wasn't on the keychain she gave me. So of course I went to the car and had to walk back. I was somewhat satisfied with embarrassing her in front of the salesman by explaining her stupidity loudly. When she gets back with the car she's chatting with her boyfriend on her cell phone and doesn't bother to pull up far enough out of the area where she could get ticketed. The salesguy was trying to get her to, but when she's on that cell phone she's pretty much oblivious to everything else. When we get the car reparked she informs me that I have to babysit the stereo since it's in the back seat (no room for it in the trunk). About this time I got ROYALY pissed off. I had only come along because I had 3 more people to do christmas shopping for and I wasn't going to be able to buy for any of them now while we were here. So she left me in the car and I fumed for an hour while SHE got HER shopping done. Now I have to make a 25 minute drive to the mall, wasting ANOTHER afternoon just because my mother was an idiot. And it wasn't like she didn't know I had shopping to do. I had only mentioned it 5 or 6 times in the past 2 hours. Of course I didn't feel like going back out as soon as I got home, so I said to heck with it and went to my room to be by myself because my family was just pissing me off and I wasn't very good company at that point. And now here I am typing this. If you thought this entry was long, wait till I start in on how much my love life bites. Ja ne.